Today is forty-eight days, which is six weeks and six days, of the Omer. Yesod of Shechinah / Malchut, Bonding of the Indwelling / Sovereignty of the Divine.
When a persona is created, it conceals the parts of the self that do not fit into that body. Can you see beyond your personality into your shadowy depths? What part of you do you mourn for the most? How can you start to bring it toward the light, to integrate it into your daily being?
Can you accept that your shadow will always be a part of you? Can you work with, and play with, your shadow? Is it too painful to accept all that you have repressed, all that you thought was No Good?
Your shadow has free reign within your unconscious and often speaks to you in dreams. Not remembering dreams can be a sign of holding so tightly to your perception of reality that you’re not willing to make space for irrational possibility within life.
I have lived my whole life by a code of rationality. Often, that code has led me down ugly, twisted paths. I yearn to dance with my shadow, to play within the primordial possibilities of my eternal womb.
May you be freed from the judgments of your parents, your community, and your rational mind. May you create space for the twisted, ugly, broken parts of you. May you bond with the entirety of you, the multitudes within you. May you know the freedom to explore and metabolize all of your thoughts, feelings, and emotions.
It is healthy to discipline one’s actions. It is unhealthy to deny what is happening within you. May you know true bonding with the spark of holiness, the broken vessel, within.