Today is thirty days, which is four weeks and two days of the Omer. גבורה שבהוד, Gevurah of Hod, Discipline of Splendor.
Unfortunately, I do not reach the depths of my being every time I pray. Nor do I feel at one with the universe. When I am disciplined and make time for prayer on a daily basis, I am most likely to get to that place, and sink in more quickly, than when I lean into my excuses.
Opening up space within myself for expansive love and revelatory splendor does not come naturally. I have to remind myself that I am worthy of becoming more deeply me. I have to remind myself that who I am today is not bound by who I was yesterday.
When you make space for splendor on a daily basis, you make space for the possibility of overwhelming change and complete stasis. I have always been a loving person building bridges to the infinite. The discipline of my splendor reminds me that the process continues to unfold.
Previously on this day in the Omer
30 Days of the Omer 5778 / 2018: Building a regular practice of gratitude.
30 Days of the Omer 5777 / 2017: Meandering thoughts on splendor and conversion.
Four Days of Catch Up
My 2019 Omer count did not include four daily meditations due to illness (i.e. I counted without blogging). I published these thoughts today to provide myself a complete reflection of the Omer for 5779.
17 Days of the Omer 5779: Three books that illuminate the Truth of Truth.
18 Days of the Omer 5779: Judaism is the Enduring Truth that animates me.
19 Days of the Omer 5779: The pull of prayer; the calm embrace of eternity.
20 Days of the Omer 5779: Beauty is essential to life.