Today is twenty-five days, which is three weeks and four days, of the Omer. Netzach of Netzach, Enduring Eternity.
I find these questions from Rabbi Simon Jacobson intriguing: “Since I have will and determination, why am I so mercurial? Am I afraid of accessing my endurance and ability to commit? Do I fear being trapped by my commitment? Is it a reaction to some past trauma?”
May your memories help you understand your current ways of reacting to the world, and not get you stuck in memory loops. May you be able to fully process trauma you have experienced and may trauma you are experiencing end quickly.
May you spend today resting in the holiness of enduring eternity, enjoying the sweet light of Shabbat candles, the sweet company of family and friends, and the sweet knowledge that wherever you are on your journey is exactly where your soul needs to be today.