Today is twenty-nine days, which is four weeks and one day, of the Omer. Chesed of Hod, Grace of Splendor / Gratitude / Prophecy.
Each person must recognize their own limits. Today, I was forced to face my own limits and to recognize how myopically I have been focused on rabbinical school since I started attending full-time last fall.
It is easy to focus on the ego’s desires. When you focus deeply on your own needs, wants, and hopes, you can miss the soul expanding world surrounding you; broken and hoping to be healed. Setting aside your desires and feeling the grace that surrounds you – committing to a concrete action to support another person or a larger community, can help you grow deeper than any individual journey.
And sometimes, committing yourself to a larger community is as mundane as submitting receipts for reimbursement before the grace period expires. This may be the most expensive lesson I have ever learned.